Falling from atop the pedestal I placed myself upon stings just a bit. Today I found out that I am human too and make mistakes. I'm not much better than the techs I complain about daily and perhaps I need to approach my job from a different angel.

I overlooked the written portion of a check I took for a computer and we lost $200 because of it. That means I am about even with Will for lost revenue. I was spared from the chopping block because of all the other good things I have done. They opted to give me write-up rather than shown the door. I screwed up big time and right now couldn't feel worse. I know everybody makes mistakes ... but I let myself ... I let management down ... I'm suddenly aware of just how much is riding on my shoulders @ work and I think it might be time to back off a bit. Why should I put myself in a position to be fired for a mistake because my brain is too busy thinking about how to tell a customer we lost all of their data and can't recover it. Or trying to figure out a way to "fix" our tech bench. That's Dan's problem! Maybe I should just let him fall on his face and not be there backing him up.

I thought I was close to quitting last week and changed my mind after having Tuesday and Wednesday off ... but today I just want to crawl under a rock. I'm embarrassed at my mistake(s), I'm disappointed in myself, and I feel bad for letting down Don, Mel, Sara, Teresa, Steve, and probably most of all Matt. I'm not even certain that Matt knows how close I came to loosing my job today.

So tomorrow I get up, drive into work, open the store alone, and don't see any relief until 3:00pm ... I just hope we are slow and I don't have to take any checks.