Today, as I walked from my hotel down Market St. toward my
office in the Financial District of San Francisco, I was in awe. On every light
pole, in so many store fronts and even banks and the US Post Office hangs a
rainbow flag. The very symbol of LGBT Pride. In this city, it is a symbol that
LGBT people are seen, respected, and welcomed. They hang the entire month of
June, known as Pride Month. As a Midwest girl who is still shocked to see
rainbow flags displayed on any business in her home state of Michigan, seeing
so many of them proudly hanging as far as you can see hit me right in the gut.
It’s a feeling few can understand, and I doubt I can even describe accurately,
but it boils down to knowing that here, in this city, during this month of the
year, my difference is celebrated not hushed or swept under the rug.
I have been a lesbian all my life. Fact. I know it’s
shocking to some who meet me for the first time, but in general I fit the
stereotypical image they have for lesbians in their head, except that I do not
wear flannel. Well not much. My sexuality has not been a real issue in my life
since my family finally came to terms with it well over 20 years ago a year or
two after I was forced out of the closet my senior year of high school. Their
initial reactions were typical of parents in the mid 1990’s actually. They told
me they loved me but wanted to be sure I knew what I was ‘getting into’ with
this ‘choice’. They were fairly quickly educated on the language and word
choice issues, and eventually came to accept both the fact that I was born to
love differently than societal ‘norms’ and the partner I chose to spend my life
with. My father even states with pride now that he has 4 daughters. Only 3 of
us are related by blood, the other is my wife Jennifer.
After leaving life in Small Town America and finding a place
where I could blend in a bit more easily as an out lesbian who refused to hide in
a closet and did daring things like hold my wife’s hand while walking down a
public street, I also found places where there were many more ‘like us’. I shopped
LGBT owned cafĂ©’s and bookstores. I attended PRIDE events and felt at home in a
sea of weird, oddly dressed, misfits who all had one singular thing in common. We
were societal outcasts because we loved differently. But over the years as
society began to accept that LGBT people were not out to convert their children
to a lifestyle, or pedophiles who would infect you with AIDS and instead just
wired a little differently in the area of attraction and love, those same
businesses I once frequented were no longer needed. It became okay to go to
dinner and a movie with my wife and not be asked to leave for no reason other
than we were clearly more than just friends. I could buy books and stickers
over the internet, or at the large bookstores more conveniently located near my
home. And, I no longer needed to attend
a PRIDE celebration to feel like I had a community who didn’t judge me.
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Somewhere along the way, the once thriving LGBT subculture was
lost as we became mainstream. I always thought this was a good thing. But
today, as I walked in to the office, I realized just how much I miss that
feeling of acceptance you get when shopping an LGBT targeted business, eating
in a café owned and operated by a gay couple, or attending a PRIDE event filled
with thousands of people from every walk of life all celebrating their one
common difference. I miss feeling like I belong, and it wasn’t until I saw all
those flags proudly flying that I realized how misplaced I sometimes feel at
home where rainbow flags are seldom seen. Every once in a while, it’s nice to
be reminded that we are here, we are queer, and we are welcomed with open arms.
So, I challenge you, my friends and family, to show your support in some way.
Change your profile pic, find a meme and re-share it showing your support in
some way. And, if you dare, stick a rainbow flag outside your business or home
this month to let every LGBT person who so often feels unwelcomed and unworthy,
that you support them and their right to love differently.